Whoa!

I forgot I had a blog!
I am back!
I will be writing a post tomorrow.
Updating everyone about my life a few things have changed!

Just a Pic

I took this pic at Niagara County Park! Just wanted to share the photo with everyone!

Unknown

I have been fighting my depression that has raised its ugly head again. I was diagnosed with Severe Depression, Severe Anxiety, Bipolar disorder & major issues with paranoia over 7yrs ago. Normally I am okay, I can go about my day/s with no problems but one little thing can trigger the Depression then goes into a domino effect with the others. Years and years ago I also cut myself. I don't anymore but at times the urge to is so strong that I have to hide my knives or scissors from myself. I barely made it through High School but I talked to my High School Youth Leader and he helped me out alot. My 9th and 10th grade years of HS were the hardest to the point I wanted to end my life but I didn't Im still here fighting and life is still a struggle but I have God, family and friends on my side! My father doesn't know the whole truth of this he only knows some. I am very lucky that I am able to put on a fake smile most days so I don't worry the people I am around everyday! I just request you pray for me please!

For me to write this down and share takes a lot of guts so please don't make fun!

Death

Yesterday I found out my Real Mom's Dad (Grandpa Don) passed away. I am going up to Beaverton, OR to be with that side of the family until Thursday!

So my Monday was not that great because I found out Natasha is moving to Maine then that my Grandpa Don died! What a great way to start my week! *NOT*

Sad

Yes my heart is torn into a million tiny pieces. I am going to miss you, I'm always going to love you, thank you for everything you did for me, you taught me that loving someone wasn't a bad thing but the most wonderful thing ever. Now your moving away due to your job they are transferring you to Maine which is 3,222 miles away. :( , you told me to share this love with others I will try but you will always be my first Love! I will always love you Natasha!

Change

Situations change people move on that's Life!
There is no hard feelings!
I will always Love you,
But I will miss you!
We will always be friends!
Be safe moving to Maine.

Thoughts

I have made a decision I need to read more books so I text Ariel and she told me to go to her Book Blog http://thelibrariansbookshelf.blogspot.com/ to get some ideas for books and I made a list! You need to go check it out! Tomorrow I will be going to the library to see if they have any of the books that I have on my list! Well I have you all have a great night!